Rewatch #2
★★★★★ + ★ BONUS
I started this with the expectation to go into a complete spiral of existentialism. I think my self-destructive behavior or general attraction to sadness subconsciously tempts me to do things that have hit me hard in the past.
It was the complete opposite, the visual simplicity and deep complex story of FLCL is what i truly aspire for in my art. The hopelessness of an ordinary city is something people despise, but i realize that creating something within that modernity is true fulfillment. Being ok with the ordinary by knowing its is a perma state, its easy to think everyone elses life is full of excitement and even if some are you really wouldn't want that bc it completely de-sensitizes you to joy. Thinking life is butterflies and rainbows is naive, how can there be joy without pain. Desire is a discontent with the present, nothing is ever enough for humans. Its so beautiful at how the enthusiasm of the team just bleeds through this show, it reinvigorated me, today i woke up and 6 hours passed before i even realized i was working. Maybe this is just me but i think the way my brain works is by constantly making sense of things and questioning, this somehow ties into productivity. I aslo really hate how people dicredit it for how hard to understand it is, after watching it a second time i can pull alot of understanding out of it but even then thats not the point. I hate being spoon-fed. Being able to find your own meaning in something tends to be so much more visceral bc its directly ties to your understanding of the world. I was really sad after watching it for the first time but now im excited...i could cry, this is the point of life dumb bastards >:(
That just flew out of me and prob alot typos sry, in short, fill your life with things you know you enjoy and develop conclusions that will eventually be re-understood in the future :)
revisiting this to write about "never knows best".
fuck, man. this anime is crazy and it really wasnt meant to be, weird how we derive so much out of so little. the only reason the guy drew it on her cigarette is beacuse it looked cool lmao.
i always assumed that it was a way of saying ignorance is bliss. i somehow failed to attribute it to what mamimi was thinking and what her character represented. never knowing best is a way of accepting the misery in your life and being unwiling to change. she felt so connected to naota because of how his brother made her feel, refusing to move on.
we can always limit our potential by saying "i could never do that" or "im not ___ enough" but
"you never know how good you might have become unless you try...so lets get with it" - Mike "The God" Mentzer.
we often take who we are for granted and live comfortably within the hell we or the world has created but being the person you're unhappy with hurts a lot more than the change it takes to escape.
